That's Not My Name

Recently, my lawyer contacted me.  He had sent the divorce paperwork to my ex to review.  There were a few minor grammatical changes, but after they are corrected, he will sign them.  I re-read the document and noticed the name at the bottom was incorrect.  It wasn't my name.  But the truth is, it will be my name.  It will be my name on the divorce papers.  And that feels all sorts of weird.  I'm in this process.  This affects me.  This is a part of me now.  When I see my name on that document and I sign it, I'm not sure what emotions I will feel.  I'm sure it will be more than one emotion.  I am human and more than one dimension.  I know I will feel all the emotions that I'm supposed to feel and I will own each one as I feel them.  I also know that I have good people in my life that want to be there for me.  They have stepped up and declared that they want to hold my hand and do whatever I feel like doing when that time comes.  This is what I choose to focus on right now.  Not that my name and signature will soon be on this document and I had never planned on signing in my life.  No, this document will not be my focus and it will not define who I am.  My emotions and the "family" that surrounds me during this time will be a defining moment for me.