Saturday, April 23, 2016

Afraid of the Dark?

It starts when we are little.  We fear the monsters that hide in the shadows.  We might not see the monsters when we are kids, but eventually, they come out.  Life reveals its own monsters at different times and some are scarier than others.  Every person has them.  Every person deals with the hurt and the sadness and the guilt they bring.  How do we overcome our fear of the dark and the monsters that exist there?  I feel it is by realizing that we are all imperfect.  We all carry a dark side and real struggles that we have to deal with daily.  I believe to overcome our fear of the dark, we have to accept our own dark, and walk hand in hand with our friends/family that are just trying to deal with theirs.  We can't do this life on our own.  We need real connections.  We need depth.  And in order to get deep, you can't be scared of the dark!

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Trust

Is it a strength or is it a weakness?  Maybe it is both.  Does it take strength to trust people?...to give people the benefit of the doubt, to see good in people and believe that most people are good?  Or is it a weakness that allows others to take advantage of you?  All I know right now is that trusting people is part of my nature.  People are good until they prove otherwise.  That is how my brain and my heart work.  And as I evaluate pieces of my life, because that is what you do when you deal with big changes in your life, I've thought a lot about my trusting nature.  I'm not putting myself down for being trusting.  I'm just being honest with myself.  I'm becoming more aware of the position it puts me in with others.  I  feel for me, my trusting nature is both a strength and a weakness and it's time for me to learn how to help it become more of a strength than a weakness in my life.  Now to figure out how to do that is the trickier part.  I have a strong feeling it has to do with the core group of friends in my life.  The ones you choose to walk along side you in life and help you open your eyes and see things in a different way.  And that excites me and scares me at the same time.  Because it's hard to have your eyes open when it feels they have been slightly closed for a while.  But I'm ready!